A time to reinvent myself and my life.

Tomorrow I’m going to spend some time with my family. It will be nice to just relax and reflect on my life- all my ups and downs. Accomplishments, failures, good times, bad times, and they have all led me to this one moment in time. This ever occurring moment that always has so much promise, so much inspiration, so much desire, but I always end up in. Always wanting to become that perfect version I have in my mind. Truth is I will probably never get to be that girl, but if I try I’ll get closer to her and most likely become someone better. I want to be confident and friendly. I want to make new friends and feel like I’m proud of myself in every way. No I may not be as thin as I wanted to be, but I’m trying to get to a healthier place. I have to be real honest with myself I have to do this right here and right now or it is never going to happen. When I look back at when I was a young child I admire her for being confident and not afraid to do anything. She still lives inside of me and I think it is time for her to come out. I’m going to do things I’m scared to do, but I’m going to fake it. I’m going to pretend like I know what I’m doing and figure it out on the way. I’m going to reach out to people so I don’t have to spend my whole semester bored in class. I’m going to love myself and not let anything get between me and my dreams. I’m going to find time to fit in everything I want to do. No, every day I may not fit every little thing in, but I’m going to get majority of it in there. I know there will be days I’m going to be tired, discourage, and won’t feel 100%, but that’s a part of life. The most important thing in life is how you react to things that happen to you, not what happens to you. Everyday I’m going to live life.