Time

Time never feels like you thought it would.  Those important parts of a person's life like being a college senior, getting married, or buying a house you never feel like you thought you would.  You are never as far along in your life as you had hoped and you still most likely never feel like a grown up.  However, you have to appreciate where you are regardless of where you thought you would be.  Expectations keep us from being happy and appreciating our potential.  Maybe it is a good thing you aren't as far along as you wanted to be.  Perhaps you had some fun along the way instead of being so serious and dedicated 24/7.  Life is more than the accomplishment you place on your resume.  Life is about the mark you leave on the world by the way you touch the lives of the people around you.  Never forget your first loves, and I am not talking about your first boyfriend or girlfriend even though you should never forget them as well.  I am talking about the things you fell in love with doing, seeing, or being.  I feel like as we age we no longer feel the need to be creative and unqiue anymore.  It's like you found out who you are so you just stop exploring and enjoying certain things that used to partly define you.  Never turn your back on something that helps you discover yourself, self reflect, or relax you.  We are too stressed as a culture.  Everyone needs that one or two or three or how many ever things that keep them happy and sane.  Writing is one thing I have been struggling to keep to myself.  I used to write all the time.  Every little thought I had I would write it.  I am trying to get back into it because I miss and I feel like I've lost part of myself.  Just like tonight I took a whim to write and look at all the thoughts I had that I had no clue where circling in my head.  Writing is a very powerful tool for that very reason.  It makes things so much clearer to just put them out there rather than trying to figure it would inside your head.  Another passion of mine I have mostly given up on is singing.  I am so painfully shy to sing in front of people even though I have done it.  I would really like to try to see if I can at least make some youtube videos of myself singing.  If I never do anything I will always wonder what would people have thought.  That's another thing trying is one of the most important things to do, because you will never know what could have been.  The what could have been will haunt you for the rest of your life.  I have seen several people ruin their lives over one important event or situation where they did not try to see what would happen.  Being scared is for people who are immortal.  When you have limited time you have to use it every day, but it is hard.  It is sooo much easier to just sit back and take the easy road, but I promise when everyone reaches the end of their road they regret not taking the senic route...